Jillian

I have a friend for over 6 years. We used to live up the block from each other and for a time period we were inseperable. But I moved and now she goes away to school. We hardly ever see each other but no matter how long its been since the last time we talked, I can always call her when something goes wrong.Out of everyone I ever met she probably has the biggest heart. She absolutely loves animals. When we were younger she used to wake me up, or at least try, every Sunday to go with her to dog adoption centers. She is now in school to become a Vet. Since I've known her she always knew that was what she wanted to do. I am actually jealous of her for that reason. I am not that passionate about anything. I used to think I wanted to work with children but after my last job at a children's gymnastic place, I realized I don't.
Just a few weeks ago her brother got diagnosed with cancer. I want to be there for her as much as I can, but I don't even know where to start. I constantly call to see how he is doing but I don't feel like that is enough. And since she goes away to school she feels even worse that she can't be here to help him out. I feel so bad for her brother. He should have been graduating this May, but now he obviously is unable to. This only shows that the worst things only happen to the best of people.

The bReak up

My friends boyfriend recently broke up with her. I personally think the kid totally over reacted. Here is the situation...
One day we were all hanging out and someone who has the same phone as my friend Suzy picked up her phone thinking it was his. Well that was the crash and burn of her relationship. The kid who picked up her phone was her boyfriends friend so he just gave the phone to him to give it back to Suzy. So the boyfriend took it amongst himself to search her phone for evidence of her cheating. Even though he wasn't suspicious he went through everything. It turned out she still had an ex's phone number in her phone. Well that just set him off. He started calling everyone of her friends, including me, to see if we knew about this. And he even called her mother to say goodbye and to thank her for everything she has done for him. This was a little o.d. Just because she had the number doesn't mean she was cheating. It turns out she actually HATES her ex and her boyfriend at the time, knew this. Well they now have been broken up for about two months, and he can't even be her friend. She is completely devastated and feels she is wrong. I personally he just over reacted and is just insecure.

When is it too far?

Right after a person gets dumped, what is their first reaction? Revenge. But how far is too far? Usually a person can get with the ex's best friend or even better an enemy. The only thing you care about is to get your ex's attention any way you could. You can either show up everywhere the ex is and show him what hes missing. Or take the missing approach and avoid places he is going to be to make him curious. But these are baby games compared to what I have recently heard about a girl doing.
This girl and guy had a long distance relationship. He was in Mississippi, in the Marines. After about two months of them being together he didn't feel like the relationship was working. Aside from him being far away, his girlfriend was always nagging him. Whether it was he didn't get to call her back because he fell asleep early because he was waking up at 5 in the morning. Or because a girl commented his myspace. This girl was just not even trying to make the relationship work. It was as if she enjoyed the fighting. But as if he wasn't in enough stress with being there working constantly, he realized he didn't need this additional anxiety. So he called it quits. Well that was just unacceptable for this girl. She only called him more regardless of the time and constantly kept harassing his friends from home. She was going to his parents house complaining to them about him leaving her. And she was even thinking about telling him that she was pregnant to keep him around.
But just the other night she took it to a whole other level. Like I mentioned before he is in the Marines. She somehow got in touch with his command officer, or whatever they are called, and told him that the boy stole something from her and is refusing to give it back. The boy was just recently asked to go to Iraq. That no longer is an option for him. He is in deep trouble for this. Loyalty is a big thing in the Marines and now it seems as if he is a thief. This girl may have just ruined his career. That is just wrong, how selfish could a person be? Does destroying someone else's life make a broken heart heal? I personally don't think so.

Young Love <3

I just heard of a teenage relationship that makes me feel like I have the greatest boyfriend. Personally I think that a relationship should be about caring, support and loyalty. When I have a problem or when I just need someone to comfort me when I am feeling down I run to my boyfriend. My relationship isn't perfect, we fight here and there, but my boyfriend never makes me feel pathetic or embarrassed about our relationship. I never have to hide the things that he says or does to me from my friends because they would look at me in shame.
A story I was told the other day is a perfect example of an unhealthy relationship. A girl is in love with her boyfriend, she runs and jumps when he tells her to. When he doesn't have money for food she not only pays for it but will pick it up and bring it to where ever he is. You would think that he would truthly cherish her and realize how lucky he is to have found her. But you would have thought wrong. Instead he cheats on her any chance he gets and he doesn't even try to hide it. He doesn't tell her out of guilt, he just knows that she will be there no matter what he does. He verbally abuses her in public, to the point where other people feel uncomfortable about the situation. And when she finally break up with him he somehow reverses the situation and she is left begging for him back.
But I think the real winner in this whole relationship was something that was done a few weeks ago. It turns out that he went out one night and told her he was home and to come over later. So she went about her night waiting for his call. She was driving around with a friend and seen her boyfriend in a girls car. And this was a girl that she was told that he was cheating on her with. Her first reaction was to follow the car to confront them. Somehow when she got out of the car to go over to the car the girl hit her with the car. She was left bleeding in the street with some of her teeth missing. Her boyfriend never got out of the car to see if she was okay and the girl kept driving. She now has undergone major dental work and still goes out with the same guy. I just don't know what it going to take to make that poor girl realize she deserves more.

Back to Black

I love music. The music I listen to goes hand and hand with my mood. Three months ago I broke up with my boyfriend. Even though I still loved him, I felt like I needed a break. So whenever I would be driving, obviously I controlled the music selection. Whenever a friend would be in the car with me they would complain that before every song I would say " this song reminds me of Phil." This certain friend however is music illiterate. She doesn't listen to the songs meaning she just listens to the words. As long as the song has a catchy chorus or beat she loves it. Yet just a week ago her boyfriend broke up with her and shes trying to get a good myspace song.Who did she resort to, me of course. My myspace song never had anything to do with how popular it is at the moment, but how the song expresses my emotions for the moment.

A song that was gaining my interest lately was Back To Black by Amy Winehouse. Usually I don't like her music at all. But like I said before I just recently broke up with my boyfriend and I decided to see other people. I started dating someone immediately, whereas my boyfriend wanted to wait. After about a month I realized that I only wanted to be with my ex boyfriend. But, of course, at this time he was dating another girl. And I was unsure if I hurt him too much for him to forgive. Well this songs chorus just stood out to me. "We've only said goodbye in words" I think that is such a good line. Yes I told my boyfriend I didn't want to be with him anymore, but I didn't mean it from my heart, it was just words used in anger there wasn't enough emotion behind it to mean forever. I still only thought of him regardless to who I was with or what I was doing. Then the next few lines in the chorus is " You go back to her and I'll go back to black." This obviously hit home for me because if my ex decided to stay with the new girl he was now seeing, my heart was going to re break all over again.

The video is showing Amy Winehouse getting ready for a funeral for her heart. It is actually a pretty good video. Here it is...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aygAu1x2uQo

Inspiration

Life can change in a blink of an eye, and as much as we’ve heard this before I wanted to say it again. Life is nothing that we can just close our eyes to and hope for the hardships in life to go away, because that is called denial. You should always think wisely before making an impulsive decision. Because sometimes you regret your choices in life and someone is left disappointed. Everyone has their own opinions and problems, and each person reacts to them differently for reasons of individuality. So next time you are faced with a situation that seems too hard for you to bare, not only should you prove to others that you can make it through, but most importantly show yourself the amount of strength and courage that you have within. And most likely you will surprise yourself that you’re not as weak as you believed, and maybe you will realize that you’re capable of more than what you give yourself credit for.

Venting

The other night I was going to Albany to visit my boyfriend with a couple of friends. For some odd reason my parents are against me driving there. Therefore my friend was going to be the driver but she wasn't up to it so I drove. After three hours of driving and 1 mile left until my destination, I got pulled over. I was keeping up with traffic and was simply trying to get into the other lane because I didn't want to miss my exit. But even though I was going the same speed as everyone else on the road I was the unlucky one who attracted the cops radar. The cop even agreed with me that it seemed as if I was trying to get over but he still wrote me the ticket. Now my parents took my car away and are calling me irresponsible. Somehow they are blaiming all of this on my boyfriend. Meanwhile he wasn't even in the car nor telling me I should drive faster. My dad is also claiming that he has only received one ticket since he has started driving. So apparently, according to my parents, I am the only person in the world to ever get a speeding ticket.